The Sound of Silence
On this Valentine’s Day, I’ve been gifted the sound of silence. When I get these small moments to reflect and gather my thoughts, I am beyond thankful. This morning, I have just that. Lily went with some friends on a North Shore adventure, Emma went down for an early nap and Cary is blissfully sleeping in her bassinet. Since having Care Bear, I haven’t had much time to ponder life, let alone blog about it. But sometimes it’s nice to just sit in the silence and jot down my thoughts.
This season of motherhood is a very refining one. My children need every ounce of me, and some days it feels like I have nothing left to give. I’m so glad that my strength comes from the Lord, and his abundant, life-giving, springs. I have to constantly remind myself of this truth. In a time when the Holy Spirit is so easily drowned out by the cares of this world, I pray that I would continue to be sanctified daily and my thoughts pointed heavenward. I pray that I would continue to look to Christ as my strength, and that he would truly be my joy. Even as I do mundane tasks like laundry, dishes, nursing the baby and preparing toddler food, my hope is that my heart would be focused on the Lord and not self-seeking. As Paul reminds the Ephesians in chapter 4: ” 21 assuming that you have heard about him and were taught in him, as the truth is in Jesus, 22 to put off your old self,f] which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires,23 and to be renewed in the spirit of your minds, 24 and to put on the new self, created after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness.”
I don’t know about you, but my “old self” with deceitful and selfish desires comes creeping back in with every interruption, every whine, every time I have to “put out a fire” so to speak. Just last night, as we were all sitting down to dinner (and I was very hungry), Cary wouldn’t stop crying! I found myself extremely frustrated that she was super content while I was making the dinner, but decided to rage when it came time to eat it. This is just a small example of how the Lord is teaching me to die to myself. It’s a small way of Him showing me my sin of selfishness.
In Luke chapter 9 we are reminded of the cost of following Him: “23 And he said to all, ‘If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. 24 For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will save it…” I know this is not necessarily the exact context of what Jesus is talking about in this passage, but it’s a good reminder of my self-centered mentality and how I need Jesus on a daily basis!
Anyway, I just wanted to reiterate my thankfulness for times like these. The sound of silence is a precious gift, and today it came at just the right time for this mama.
I hope you have a HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY!
And here I am a day later actually posting this blog 
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